Are you Happy...????

I just love the ClickJobs new ad. I can almost see me in it. Now, don't get me wrong. I am not happy (far from it) from my job. However, I like the guy's enthusiasm. He is up before the alarm clock ticks ,for crying out loud.
And then the killer tag line Are you ......HAPPY. Classic.

While we are at the topic of jobs, I completed a year this January.

So, the question is "Am I happy?".
Truth be told, I don't really know. I hate the work here. No, wait...I love the work..but the good work is few and far in between. Lately, the gap between work and no-work has started to be in months. The work is also mostly bug solving. I like bug solving, makes you think. However, the "makes you think" bugs are also very few and far in between. There are absolutely no features to work on.

I think....I was right the first time. I HATE MY WORK.

Which brings me to the classic question, which I am tired to asking myself, "Why am I here?".
I have a bond of two fucking years here, thats one.
My Team Lead is a fucking genius, thats two.

The bond thing is a non-issue for me. Although, I have been using it as an excuse for far too long. If you ask me honestly, I am a little scared as to whether I have lost IT. A year of doing nothing great can do that to you. I have done tiny tit-bits of projects (Network Simulators, Firefox extensions) on my own here but thats out of boredom than anything else. I just have to get into the groove of preparing for interviews again. This place is taking the wind out of my sails. I thrive on passion, on movement and momentum. Something this place seriously lacks.

Then why am I here?
Apart from the fact that I don't have companies lining up for me(but they will !!! ;-) , I have learned a lot from my Team Lead. He is super talented, super humble . Trust me on this. Just being in his company teaches me a lot. He is one of the major reasons I want to stay a little longer.

How long..........???


I am not in a mood to be fucked by this place for a year more......thats for sure.